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Update from my hospital bed... First of all, to the people of Cardiff, Dublin, Belfast, Leeds and London, I'd like to apologise. I cannot finish the tour in the current state I'm in, so I am very sorry. All tour dates will be postponed though, and not cancelled, and I will play them for you at a later date. Again, sorry. Next, to the people of Oxford, I apologise. My disgraceful show the other night, which I have now watched back, was no way to act as a professional musician. You guys will all get a refund, plus I will rearrange the show. To anyone who stayed and tried to support me, and I know there were a few of you, thank you, and sorry once more.
Next up, I'm sure you have all seen or heard the rumours that I tried to take my own life yesterday morning on my bus. Well those are not rumours I'm afraid, that was the absolute truth. As everyone knows, Nicole Woods broke up with me on Monday evening following another bitchfest from me in her direction, and I lost the plot. ENF and GoB left the tour because of the verbal rampage I went on, and that left me with what? Nothing...I mean, losing Nicole alone was enough to push me over the edge. So yesterday morning, I wrote a very sad song, and then I went to the medicine cabinet. I saw that bottle of very small, very blue pills, and I poured them out onto my desk and counted them...57 there were. I pushed as many as I could into my mouth and I crushed them with my teeth and swallowed as hard as I could. The next thing I know, I was waking up in a hospital feeling very very ill, and very very stupid.
It wasn't a clever thing to do, and even now, over 24 hours later, I still feel so very sick. I will never forgive myself for such a selfish act. So I apologise to you all, everyone who was worried about me, and I promise you I will never do it again.
Whilst I was in here, I also had a visit from Nicole. She said she was coming to help me gain closure and try to forget her, which made me really sad. But then she gave me the opening, the chance to apologise, and I did, and she said she forgives me. So she has taken me back, and given me one final chance. I am so grateful to her for that, and I want to promise everyone right here in public that I will never treat Nicole like I did in the past. I'm gonna be a better girlfriend this time. I love her.
So for now, I'm very tired and I have to rest. Because I have cancelled the rest of the tour, Nicole has asked me to come back to America with her so that I can get some rest. I imagine I'll be heading there later, and I hope I get some nice peaceful rest when I'm there, so that I'm ready to go off on the Glamazon tour next month, which I WILL still be performing on.
Once more, sorry to everyone I've hurt. I'm ok now, and I'm gonna try harder to be a better person,
KC
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