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Quote:You can control life, even when I want to be perfectly stable, no more, I have tried to take and give people's out of my life, JUST LEAVE! But somehow- pain and heartbreak find it way back to me, but who cares- I'm giving the events that happen to me, death, lies, betrayal, no matter what. Recently, I had a part to my life where I was going to go to church, but felt so judged, just by my past.. the past scares me but sometimes the future excites me. You cant CONTROL THE EVENTS AND THE PATH of you and I'm trying to change it, but it's like it's mapped out, it's like the future is here, but I'm still dancing around in the past, screaming into my music, singing my music and loving every second it it until my heart fails of misery and my life is celebrated by music.
Mrs. Pearl has 12 kids to play attention too, Radio was the outsider, just listening to the kids talk to her, but never gave a response. She will be in a corner all day with a doll, writing... writing stories that came from a deep emotion Radio already had at age of 11. She will HATE to go out in public- seeing girls with their mothers and not to mention- the america dream of a little girl becoming daddy's little girl, A FATHER SHE DIDNT KNEW. A touch of hope, love and care she can only dream of. Mrs. Pearl thought Radio was going insane, but no- it was a girl locked away in a place she felt confortable in and dint know how to break the chain of thoughts and feelings she devoloped for herself to survive in such a cold world. What made Radio feel free? She was always tense, at school, never had a lot of friends, she will walk by herself, thinking no one will understand her. Music was a way she connected strongly WITH HERSELF. Music was a ghost to her, a ghost she only saw. She wanted to be normal- but being normal seemed like death to her, one day it can come and one day you may never know when it will show up. Her personality disorder may just come from the suicide reality of a woman, a little girl who was harmed and twisted at such a young age. Her days of running in the garden behind the orphan home, she will pick up flowers run with them with a long dress on, Mrs. Pearl hated to dress Radio up because dresses was her favorite. She will pick flowers up and laugh to herself, spinning around and all of a sudden- comes to a slow stop.
She will fall down in the middle of the garden, surroading by flowers and at age of 13, she realized life isnt like a fucking garden- you can surroad yourself by, this luxery and glam, this dream.. but if you can pick it up and be happy with the life you have, then you will only be looking at the success and dreams of others. Art was the dramatic thing in her life- she will get paint and slash it on a piece of paper, color red and white and make a big circle- put words that can describe her.. she couldnt think of nothing but lost... (Related track, Color Me) and then she will rip it apart, screaming, why why why?! and tell smiliing weridly at the end... Mrs. Pearl will always walk in and look at Radio with a weak touch of face, Radio will smile at her. " Just let me be a lone mom.." Mrs. Pearl looked away. " And why should I do that.." Radio pointed to the corner of her room. " It's has dark as life itself can be.." Mrs. Pearl will always walk out of the room to one little light at the corner of the room, shining thought the little cracks of the wooden door.
Rock music became the aggestion and truth that Radio needed and classical music was the peace for her to her mind and pop was the dance she needed, music was a way to portray the sound and life that she wanted. Making up little videos and movies on the music she listened too, to yet again- take herself beyond the limits of imagination, just so she has a human can get by. Sometimes she will picture herself as other people, her albums and her singles express this confessions she has WITHIN herself to make her feel like the girl or woman she pictured herself as when she was growing up. She is not good around people- tend to get nervous because as a child, she wasnt accepted into this social way of life because her social was different. She wanted to social thought art and other find that werid she never wanted to talk but she will paint this picture for you how she will want you two to be. Creativy was the rock of Radio's life and dramatic and bizzare things excites Radio because of the movement of being free within yourself, no matter what people may think. No matter what people may say, you can be free and laugh and live. Radio takes her disappence, going all over Bahamas and Paris to find inspiration to new her album, Invention of Me that deeps deep into the mind of Radio, the confessions and the heartbreak of a woman who is trapped and still running away from the truth.. she doesnt want the truth, lies confront her soul at night, maybe I am talented, FUCK NO! If I was talented enough, I will be a big star, like she wanted to be, standing on top of piano, singing loudly and dramatically to a crowd that loved her and her music. Instead, she has a white room with a piano, practicing ways she can be apart of other artistes. Every morning she feels it's something new, like every day is not normal, something going to happen to push her back, like someone is chasing her, but whoever it- she likes to call her and him, Lucky.. because the persona and the goals Radio has to be a growing icon may take some time, but she thinks that chaser is enjoying chasing her into more sweet insanity to make her music classics one sweet day she learns her memories and life here on earth with her sanes (her fans). Radio gets up at 8AM, comes to the Vine Creations to work on her album cover.. and we are here to reveal the album cover that will change Radio's life... INVENTION OF ME..
 Quote:You guys may think I'm crazy after this album, but look at me- on that cover, I'm not smiling, just staring into the camera and that's what I did for this album- I stared deeply into my self and how hard and so painful it felt, but I pulled out things that hurted me so much to tell my story too.. It hurts me.. but still excites me to see all the pain and misery is going into this album.. it's kind of an release.. Love her or not- but this album is a classic.. |
