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Erica hess talks about recent events with culture uncut! erica hess.she should easily be a polarizing subject in the music world. she has had public spats with nichole fischer,suzie stockholm,natalya dubros (her wife),and possibly lead to the separation of pilgrim and his wife,envy.(who is rumored to be "living" with erica's cousin,mariko.) pilgrim will probably hate her for the rest of his life,but she is best friends with nichole,and is friendly with suzie. throw in most of this drama is very public,a very explicit stint on big brother..and on twitter and she could easily be the next kardashian type celeb.yet somehow she does not,she still manages to be one of the sweethearts of the music industy. recently erica has had more than her share of ....issues. she agreed to sit down and tell her side of the story.hello,erica. how are you? doing really well! *she smiles sweetly* i've been kicking around canada a little with zander gray. but i'm thinking of heading back to detroit.i need to be with sam and nichole.um..is there any topic that is off limits? no! only bitches agree to interviews but refuse to answer certain questions.i am no bitch!ok...why do you need to go back to nichole and sam? is there some...? *laughs and covers her mouth* no!no,no,no! they have been really good to me,always. i'm having a blast out in canada,but i need...i need people who know me.it goes without saying that the miscarriage was hard on you? oh fuck yes. its like ...its like no loss i have ever felt before. even when my parents were...taken,it didnt hurt this bad. when i finally became pregnant,it was like the doors to wonka's factory opened and it was all mine. my life was ready to start anew. that baby became my sole purpose in life. i know it seems silly,being only 3 weeks in.but i had a real bond with that little guy.when did you know what was happening to you? as everyone knows,i was spending time with envy. and for all you pervs out there,we did NOTHING. we exchanged numerous hugs and held hands. we had been stuffing our faces with junk food all day long. beef jerky,cheese puffs,ice cream,pie....whatever we could get our hands on. so late that night/early morning. i shot up in bed with these really sharp pains in my stomach.i got up to go throw up,and i fell down from the pain. it was...was the worst pain ever. i didnt think a lot of it,at first. i was pregnant and had been eating junk all day. so i crawled on the floor to the bathroom..then came the blood. i knew then...i knew it was over.and envy? i didnt tell her at the time.i tried to be as casual as i could,and tell her mariko would be coming to stay with her.i barely knew her,and didnt want to bring her into this.to side track for a moment...why did you do it? why did you come between pilgrim and his wife. *she sighs deeply* i....i dont know. its like it just snowballed.i wasnt meaning for that to happen,i swear! i just wanted to show what a great girl envy is and how anyone would be lucky to be with her. then...then it all just sorta backfired and she was out on the street.did you.."like" like her? *thinks for a bit,then nods*i had a crush on her. but that is to be expected. seriously,if you are female,i've probably had a crush on you.i very nearly,um...followed through on that crush with envy,as i think it was more than a little crush. but in the end,i AM still married.so...yeah. i remained faithful. ok,back to the fallout from the miscarriage.we had reports that you were threatening suicide? well....yes and no. i never took the gun out and held it to my head or anything like that.i did ask nichole to hide my purse that contained the gun. i was....distraught enough to do it,but still sensible enough to have her take it from me. 20 minutes later? yes.i would have.with the emotions and hormones....i felt like the biggest failure in the world.how many women carry through a pregnancy every day? not just the decent ones,i mean the complete fuck ups who have no business raising a child? yet i,who did everything right.i took those awful vitamins,i drank only water and fruit juice...yet some crackhead can carry a baby to term? its depressing. *she shakes her head a little* talking about it,it seems like a huge overreaction,but when you're going through it? it seems ..i dunno.and the stint in the hospital? nichole is an angel, she really is . she is the one who suggested i go. if anyone else suggested such a thing to me,i would have decked them. plus i am sure punching a pregnant woman is bad for karma. nichole drove me there and trusted me enough to let me walk myself in. i didnt want her to see me in such a place.i was petrified they were going to keep me forever,or give me shock therapy,or put me in a straighjjacket.but it wasnt like that. how was i to know? my knowledge came from "one flew over the cuckoo's nest". after two days,i had come back to reality. not a period in my life i am proud of,but fuck it. i got a whole PILE of those periods. what is one more? the important part is i am alive and really know the two people i can count on most.will you ever try again? no. if and when i see natalya again,i still may be hesitant for her to try. i dont think i could stand that feeling again.i know she really really wants to try.so i know i will give in. could you say no to those eyes? *she sighs longingly*have you seen or heard from natalya? nope.but until i can feel it in my heart,i will assume she is out there somewhere. she may have had a family emergency or something.i really do not know.it hurts sleeping in an empty bed every night. we hesses are social creatures by nature. we are like ferrets.any closing words? yes.bacon,porn,and icicles. i want a 30 page report on my desk by tuesday! *waves godbye*Edited by user 08 April 2013 11:32:49(UTC)
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