"Haha, dick must be good then right?" Honor giggled and let her walk inside. "Don't think I went all housewife on you. I'm still young and a mess." She eas glad Erica was there. She felt like she really needed a friend right now.

"I know right? It's been literally forever." Honor closes the door behind them. Alec was away for the time being so it was just her and Honor at the house. Between her hook ups with Kai and her cheating on Alec, Honor felt like she needed someone to talk to about it. "What's been going on with you?"

Honor looked at Erica and smirked a little. "Wait, what? You cheated on Natalya? Back the fuck up Erica, you can't throw shit on me like that without explaining." Honor laughed a little at how content she sounded about it. It was as if she had just mentioned the weather or something. She was surprised but then again it was Erica. She figured it was only a matter of time just like Honor.

Honor sat down, listening to her. "Whoa, wait, who the fuck is Nicole Shade and why would you cheat on your very pregnant wife with her? I'm going to go on a limb that she's a friend and not a drunken moment either? Very much intended?" She was actually kind of shocked that she'd tell Honor this. Even though the two were best friends, still, that's something heavy to lay on someone, kind of like Honor's situation.

"Well damn...that's....crazy." Honor shook her head and laughed a little. "But you know me, I'm not gonna put you down for it. Shit happens, trust me I know it very well." She pushes her hair behind her ear. "I take it Natalya doesn't know since you're not looking for a place to live and seem to be in one piece?"

"Nobody's going to fucking hate you Erica. Chances are, most people won't even know or pay attention. Everyone's too self-absorbed in their own lives to realize when others are hurting others...or being hurt themselves.." She looks at her, a little confused. "What's hard?"

"I think more people would send you fruit baskets and thank you cards for that one, Hess." Honor winks at her and laughs. She watches as she paces and then when she tells her that Kai told her about the two of them she sighed. "I fucking knew he couldn't keep his mouth shut. Of all the guys, I had to sleep with a big mouth." She shook her head. "Well...yeah. It finally happened. God, why is it so hard to just not tell other people when it could potentially ruin someone? You think he'd be more careful, not saying you'd tell but still."

"Damn, okay that was on me then." Honor shakes her head. "It wasn't drunk sex, we were both totally sober. Although, I'm starting to regret it. Honestly, I'm not even the cheating type. I'm the one preaching to others about being assholes for cheating and now here I am, the asshole." She sighs. "I can't help but to feel bad for Faith. I mean...it's weird seeing him on Twitter, completely acting like a love sick puppy with her and then flirting with everyone else that has a vagina. It really annoys me. It's not like I'm flirting with everything that has a dick. Yet, somehow, he doesn't see it's weird for me and since he's 'joking', which I highly doubt he is, it's fine. Anyone knows that Kai would fuck any of the women he's flirted with. I'm not an idiot."

"No, you're not an asshole. I just hope nobody else really knows about this. I don't want to hurt Alec, I love him, I promise you I do." Honor lays back on the couch. "Kai offers something I don't need, more danger. I'm already a wreck and I just got my life together, Erica. I mean I was a real mess. He listens, we can talk and stuff. He's great in bed, he understands me and all that hogwash but I mean, Alec's not bad either. He's comforting, he makes me feel good, he tells me the truth, something obviously I struggle with for him. He may be an ass sometimes but he's still loveable. I mean, he's making something out of his life, he's reliable. He's that balance I need for when I try to go insane." She takes the bottle of wine from her and drinks straight from it. "I know, he wants me to show I care but that's a fucked up way to do that. I never do that to him. Like, just know I care and get the fuck over it. You think I can flirt with him openly on Twitter? Like, I have a job that includes me being in the public eye and making sure I'm good enough to market. I can't fucking risk that just by sending him some flirty tweets. And then Alec comes on there sometimes, I can't do that. I know it'll always be me but for now, he's trying to find anything to fill that void, no matter if it's you or Suzie or whoever. He acts bipolar. One day we're fine and the next he goes on these twitter rants about forgetting and all of that. How else am I supposed to feel? The guy barely even talks to me outside of us hooking up. I know he was on vacation but something would have been nice. I'm risking my ass too, not just him." She folded her arms. Honor was pretty pissed at herself for getting into this situation and even more annoyed that it wasn't simple.

"I'm sure they'll swap stories then soon. Literally no one can keep their big mouths shut in this industry. I thought it was supposed to be about the fucking music or whatever?" She groaned a little. "Kai is attractive. In another world, he'd be perfect for me but nobody can seem to understand that Alec is perfect for me too. Just because he doesn't have 200 tattoos or goes to clubs or tries to be a badass doesn't mean I wouldn't like him. Truth be told, that's what I fucking need in my life." She looks over at her. "Erica, my life is about as simple as solving a Rubik's cube. I just haven't layed it on anyone because I didn't want people to get that first impression of me. I didn't want to be the typical model/screw up you know? Plus, nobody's ever asked so I assumed nobody was concerned with my past." She laughs. "God, Twitter is in a fucked up place if I'M the voice of reasoning. I can't even find my voice in this situation." Honor takes another sip and pass it off to Erica. "Erica, I love you but we both know I'm fucked, Kai's fucked, Alec's fucked. I just fuck up everything. I wish I never met the two. It would be easier, as cruel as it sounds." She laughed at her joke. "I bet her vagina twitches every time someone mentions her name..." She shook her head. "I mean, maybe if I tweet something that suggests something's wrong but other than that....nope. I was drunk the other night and DM'ed him about it but I guess I was a little too 'girlfriend' like with him. I don't want to be. I never wanted to be obsessed with a guy. That's not me at all."