Kai nods a little when she says it sounds serious. He felt like shit at the moment, and he had figured he couldn't feel much worse, but he was wrong. "Yeah...serious.." he repeats with a sigh. Kai sits up on the edge of the bed and clasps his hands in front of him. "The reason I need to have this chat with you, Faith...is...it's because I fucking love you more than anything. Man, you are more special to me than I ever knew anyone could be. I know...I sound like a fucking greeting card right now, but it's true. I just want to be with you, honestly for the rest of my life. I realised just how much I love you since we came here. You're amazing and I don't ever want to lose you." He takes a deep breath and rubs his hands across his face. "And that's why I have to tell you something. And you know..when I say It, I know you're going to take your stuff and leave me. I'll understand. Fuck I'll even deserve it. But if you do leave...I just know that I love you too much to keep this from you. You deserve the truth more than anyone." he was in autopilot now...but every word that was coming...it was truth..from the heart. He looks down at his feet solemnly.

Kai shakes his head when Faith speaks. He felt worse every time she would move or anything, because it made everything that he had done so much more real, and he hated that he had done that to the woman he now loved so intensely. He takes a deep breath, realising that he had been sitting for far too long, especially given that Faith was waiting to hear the answer of what he had done. He looks down at the "high five!" tattoo on his palm, realising it was no longer the most ill informed thing he had done. Her cracking voice and the fear in her tone makes it seem like Kai has no chance of saving this, but he loved her so much, so he had to try. "Faith...I'm...I'm so so sorry. A few months back...I..." he takes a deep breath. "I slept with someone. Back in England." He shakes his head. "I'm so sorry," he whispers, closing his eyes so he didn't have to watch her leave.

In the few seconds after Kai tells her what he had done, he feels the worst moments of his life. The silence was deafening, and he knew that Faith must be feeling the most intense pain of her life. The worst part of the lot though, was that there was nothing he could do about her pain. He couldn't hug her, he couldn't hold her to help her feel better. He was the cause of her sadness this time, and he fucked it all up. He feels at that moment almost like he wants to die, because if she was indeed going to leave, nothing would be worth it any more. He sits there for a few more seconds staring at his arms. "I'm so sorry," he says again. "I would never do it again. I realise it was a mistake and a fuck up. I love you so much now, Faith. I wish it had never happened." He closes his eyes, taking a deep breath when she asks who it was. He nods. "It was.....Honor. Only one time. I swear. Faith, please. I fucking hate myself for it. I...love you so much." He then shocked even himself as Kai started to cry, tears rolling down his face. He really was terrified of losing her.

Kai is momentarily shocked when Faith wraps her arms around him. Was this it? Surely not. He couldn't believe that she was hugging him, even though he was delighted that she seemed to be giving him a second chance. It only made it so much worse when she moved away though. Now she was clearly (in his mind) pushing him away for good. It was the name, he knew it. Faith had always been scared he would cheat with Honor, and he had gone and betrayed her with the one girl who Faith was afraid he would. He shakes his head, feeling like it was hopeless now. "I'm sorry," he repeats, his voice full of regret and despair. When she asks why Honor, Kai shakes his head slowly again. "It was just something that happened when we were there. I should never have done it Faith. I love you so much and it kills me that I've done this and hurt you. But I want to prove myself to you. I love you and I always will. You're the only girl I ever want to be with Faith, I promise. You're my one and only forever." he can barely bring himself to look at Faith because he is too scared of seeing the pain he has caused and it being the last time he would see her. "Please," he pleads.

Kai looks at Faith as she paces around the room, totally devastated more for her than anything. It wasn't the fact that he was found out, or even that he thought she might break up with him. He really did love Faith, so the fact that she was so upset and completely torn apart by what he had done was killing Kai. He looks at the floor as she walks around him, knowing that it was now probable that he had ruined everything they had worked towards. Neither of them had ever intended to be so serious about another person, so the fact that they had worked hard to become what seemed like such a strong loving couple made what he had done all the more worse. He listens when she starts to speak, his head in his hands, knowing that he had literally no comeback against what she was saying here. "I want to change. I fucked up and I really really am sorry. I know, everyone was right about me and I am an absolute cunt. I have no excuse for what I did, Faith." Tears start to fall again from his cheeks. "Nothing I can say will ever make it right. I fucked up bad. But I want to change. I want to be the person you know I am now. That's why I wanted to tell you." He shakes his head slowly. When she says "to us", Kai just breaks down. It was true. He had fucked it up for them both and he felt absolutely torn apart by this realisation.

Kai nods every time Faith yells at him. She was absolutely right in every single thing she said and there was no way for him to get away from that realisation. He didn't want to either. He almost wanted to be punished for what he had done, knowing that he could never be sorry enough for the way he had hurt the only woman he had ever truly loved. As she mulls over what to do, Kai just sits there, crying and thinking about all the things he stands to lose. Faith was his life now - this was his life, in Germany with someone he had brought himself to give everything to. He had no clue what he would do if she did leave him. "Faith there was no one else, I promise. I know I flirt on Twitter and stuff, but I promise you from the bottom of my heart babe, there was no one else. If there was I would tell you." When she talks about how he talks with Honor on Twitter, he looks at the floor again. "We were still friends. We still talked because of that but I swear Faith, it never happened again. It only happened once. On my life I promise you that's the truth." He tries to look at her again, but when he does, he just sees the look in her eyes. She's angry, sure, but more than that, she is so deeply hurt and Kai can see it so easily. It kills him to know that he was the one that did it to her, the one person who promised to protect her and never hurt her, the guy who told her he wanted to spend his life with her. He looks up and then slaps himself in the face - he wasn't sure why, but it hurt. "No I would never expect you to forgive me and move on. All I can do is beg you to give me another chance, Faith, to let me prove to you that I can be the person I promised you I could before. But if you want to go then I would never blame you and I would deserve it. I have no right to expect anything at all from you now." He sniffles and wipes his nose before trying futile-like to stop the tears from falling. "I care Faith. I swear I care. It's been killing me to hold this secret. I've wanted to tell you for so long, but I couldn't because I've been so scared of losing you. I never want that ever. I fucking love you so much," he says, his voice cracking up now. When she falls on the floor, Kai sits down on the carpet as well, looking across at her as they both sob, Kai for what he had caused, the pain he had brought to his girlfriend. "Faith....if you want me to go and never contact you again....just tell me and I'll go. All I want is for you to be happy now. You at least deserve that much."

When Faith is silent for a while, Kai just sits there staring at the floor, contemplating what it would be like if she did leave him. His thoughts of life without Faith were just empty. Nothing at all, and he felt an intense pain at the thought of having to live without her now - he had grown to be deeply in love for the first time in his life, and he wanted it to be forever with Faith. When she speaks and says she needs time, he bows his head and nods. "ok. Yeah, I know...I understand. I mean...I can find somewhere else to live and give you some space for now, then, so you can think about everything. Please...just please don't shut me out of your life, babe. I need you." He stares at the floor intensely, trying not to cry as he thinks that Faith was going to break up with him. It seemed like she wanted him to go away and give her some time to herself, and in his mind that spelled the end, which devastated him. He nods when she speaks again. "Of course," Kai says softly. "I won't speak to her any more. I promise."

When Faith agrees that Kai should go live elsewhere for a while, he nods slowly and stares blankly at the floor. It was like a knife to his heart to hear that from her, and he was gutted, but at the same time, he couldn't argue with the reasoning. Besides, he had no one to blame but himself. He stands and scratches his shoulder, exhaling loudly and shakily, almost like he's going to cry again. He looks around the room and walks to his side cabinet, picking up his phone and his wallet, leaving his keys on the side so Faith had the option if she decided she never wanted him back. He pauses for a moment as if he wants to say something and then sighs. He lifts a shirt from his drawer and pulls it over his head. Kai contemplates packing a bag for a moment before he decides against it. What did a change of clothes matter now anyway? "Well..." Kai says, sounding totally defeated. "I'll find somewhere for now. If you want to talk I have my phone. If not..hey no one can blame you for that."

When Faith walks over and puts her head against him, Kai is incredibly shocked, but touched. It was clear that even after what he had done, Faith was still able to love him, and in his eyes it just showed how deeply the two now cared for each other. When he feels her skin against him, he starts to tear up again, resting his head against the back of hers. "Faith, I don't know if I can ever make it up to you, but I just love you with all my heart forever." He starts to cry a little again, pulling her in for a hug, even though he didn't deserve it. "I'll never hurt you again, I promise."

Kai hugs Faith for a while, just enjoying having her close to him and cherishing it in case it was to be the last time, a thought he could hardly bear. He sniffs a little and shakes his head. "I know you have no reason to believe me, but I would never do that again, Faith. I just love you so much and I hate myself for doing this to you. I'll never forgive myself for it and I wouldnt expect you to either." When she says "If" they stay together, Kai closes his eyes and tries not to cry. "Faith please don't leave me. I can't live without you now. I love you so much." He listens to her for a while longer, allowing her to vent and rant and get all her feelings out. He deserved anything and everything she threw at him. "I don't care how hard it is and I don't care what I have to do. I'm prepared to do everything and work as hard as I can to keep you in my life, to prove myself to you. I don't care if it's the hardest thing in my life....I just want to prove that I love you. You're the only one I want in my life now. It's why I wanted to come clean. I don't want anyone else ever Faith. I promise."