When Honor takes what he says as a joke at first, Kai shakes his head. He felt deflated now. He thought she would get pissed off, not think that he was joking. He continues to look at her with the same expression on his face, trying to convey the real message to her. He was sure that she would leave and never come back now, and that made Kai scared. He never wanted to lose Honor at all. She meant the world to him. When her expression changes to serious, he looks at the floor and just shakes his head in response to her question. He waits for a few seconds, knowing she was about to walk out of his life forever. He didn't want her to get hurt, he just wanted to come clean, and somewhere in his stupid head he told himself that it would be ok and they would go back to normal. But when she stands as if to move towards the door, real fear fills his heart and he realises what he really wants. "Honor....fuck, wait, please. Don't leave. Talk to me!"

"Because I want to explain. I want to talk to you and tell you what happened so you don't think I was doing it to be a shit or whatever." He sighs and holds his head. He had definitely royally screwed up this time. And it was a strange feeling that he almost felt like he had cheated on Honor by doing this rather than the other way around. "You weren't a whore, Honor. This was recent. It's not like we got...did that...ages ago and then I was still with you." He sighs. "I swear it wasn't like that at all." When she pushes him, he falls back onto the couch and then stands up. "You're not an idiot. And I don't tell her she's the most beautiful girl in the world. Because only YOU are. I swear on my fucking life." He sighs, feeling awful now that he was the one that upset her. Normally he liked to be the one who made Honor feel better, not worse. When she glares at him, he looks into her eyes. "I'll....I'll leave her for you. Fuck, Honor, I love you. With all my damn heart. And yes I've fucked up at times, but not in being with you. I love you." When she says she hates him, Kai stares at the floor, shaking his head. It was like a knife to his heart. "Please don't say that."

"I am open with you. That's why I'm telling you this now. It's not like it happened months ago. It was like 3 weeks ago I swear. Honor i fucking love you and I wouldn't lie to you," Kai tells her, and he was being completely honest, for once in his life. When she said he was like all other guys it cut him deep. With Honor he had always tried to show hr just what she meant to him; she was more special and precious than anything or anyone he had ever had in his life. "Yes. It's a fucked up marriage, because I'm in love with you. And you know what? Somewhere in her mind Faith knows that. Everyone knows that. Please, Honor, I'm not a liar and I have been telling you the truth. "I can't lose you from my life," he says through the tears. He was terrified he was actually going to lose her, and he knew it would tear him apart if she Did leave. "Please. Please don't leave. I want to be with you," he tells her. "When you confided in me..that was special. Can't you see the connection we have? Can't you see how you mean the world to me Honor? Fuck everyone else. I've never felt like I do for you," he tells her again, desperate now not to lose her. When she cries, Kai is just about to reach out to touch her, when he suddenly feels a punch in his chest. Stepping back, he doesn't realise what's happened until he feels his shirt stick to him. He looks down, his body already in shock, where he sees a curious sight. The front of his white shirt was slowly turning red, and there was a clear gash in his chest where the knife had entered right below the ribcage, a knife that was still there sticking out from his body where it was buried to the hilt. In shock, he reaches up and touches the wound, realising it was his own blood pouring from him. He gasps a little, not sure he could even believe what had just transpired. He looks up at her, his face awash with surprise and deathly pale now as he lost blood rapidly. "Honor..." he manages to gasp, before he stumbles and sits back on the couch, touching the wound again as the knife sticks perversely from him. He reaches for it and tries to pull it out, groaning at the searing pain. "Oh fuck..." he utters.

Kai looks up at Honor when she stands in front of him. She was clearly panicked, but Kai felt curiously relaxed. He tries to snap himself out of that. To relax was basically to accept death, and he wasn't ready to accept that. Or was he? Honor said she didn't want him anymore, and he couldn't imagine her not being in his life anymore, so maybe he would be better dying, he reasoned with himself. But when she pressed towels on his wound, he snaps out of it, groaning loudly at the pain. "Fuck...oh fuck," he moans as he feels the pain shoot through his chest. "I love you...so much..." he says in a laboured voice. He wanted to say it to her in case it was the last time he ever could. He wanted her to know how he really felt about her so she wouldn't doubt his love. He couldn't handle it if she thought he didn't love her. He pushes the towels down on his wound again and groans aloud. "Ohhhh fuck," he cries out. It hurt him so bad. When she grabs her phone, Kai shakes his head. "Honor....no...don't." He tries to get to his feet. "Please...don't...call. You'll..be arrested..if you call 911. Don't do it." He knew he needed medical help, but he didn't want her to be arrested. He didn't want her to get into trouble when he blamed himself for her anger. It had been his fault for being so stupid. He looks up at her. "Honor...come...come here," he asks her, holding his hand up.

When she says that she knows Kai loves her, it made him feel a little less panicked. The last thing he wanted was to die and have Honor thinking that she was just another lay to him. "Good," he says softly. "As long as you know I love you," he says, managing to force a smile to her. His face was getting quite pale now. "No...." he shakes his head. "I care...what happens to you. I..." he groans. "I don't want you going to jail for my Stupidity." He holds her hand when she comes closer. "Besides....you're...too pretty for jail...you would...be a target..." he manages to joke with her. When she starts to apologise, Kai shakes his head. "Shhh," he says, before he coughs. "Don't say sorry. Hey...you..you make me so happy and you..you always have. You've got...no need...to say sorry." He raises her hand to his mouth and kisses it softly. "No dying," he says with a little almost silent laugh. "If...ever there...was a reason to hang on to this life...it's...it's you Honor. I'm not ready to...die." He manages to sit up a little in his seat and moves a little, despite the seating pain in his chest. He presses his lips to Honor's softly. He wanted her to know that he didn't blame her, and show her how much he truly cared about her. "Don't give up on me," he says gently with his forehead pressed against hers.

Kai looks across at her and pats her leg. "You definitely wouldn't," he jokes. "Hey, don't cry, love. Don't cry for me. You know I'm tough as old boots," he says, trying to reassure that he'll be ok, even if he wasn't convinced he would be. When she starts to lecture him, Kai nods and sits up, wincing at the way the knife presses against his insides. "I know. I know," he says weakly, coughing again and groaning at the pain that sends jolting through him. Her idea was preferable. He knew he needed help, but he would sacrifice himself to Keep Honor safe from danger. "Ok...ok I'll call. Get me...my phone. It's on the kitchen," he points. Kai watches Honor. She really did care for him and she was scared about what was going to happen to him. Kai smiles at her weakly. "Hey don't beat yourself up about this, love." he holds her hand. "I'll always love you, no matter what."

Kai smiles at her again. "Hey...worrying about you...is what I do, huh?" he says, squeezing her hand again. It was true, Kai cared about Honor much more than he did himself, as he had proved when he last saw her and he looked after her when she was feeling down and depressed. Kai reaches up and takes his phone, dialing 911 as Honor continues to apply pressure to his wound. "Reet...ambulance...this....this is Kai...Rollins. I'm...Warped Tour. I've been stabbed," he says slowly. "Bus...number 102," he says, before he listens for a second and then hangs up. "I know, love. I know you can't. I don't want you getting caught. I....promise...I promise I won't tell anyone it was you." He takes a deep breath. "Promise...promise me, you'll wait for me. Please." When she cries, Kai kisses her head. "Hey...hey,stop it. I'm gonna be alright. I promised you." He smiles at her and nods, before he starts to cry as well. "I want to be with you, Honor. I really want to be with you for real...no more sneaking around." He squeezes her hand.

When she promises him, Kai smiles at her. It was all he wanted to hear right then, and it made him somehow pull the strength from somewhere to fight to keep alive. He had to. When she kneels to kiss him, Kai closes his eyes and gives her the softest but most meaningful kiss he can muster. He nods when she gives him instructions. "I've got it. I'll hold it here," he mumbles a little. "Honor...Honor go before they get here and find you." He wipes his eyes when she tells him not to cry. He couldn't help it, but he wanted to look strong for her. He smiles up at her as she gets to the door. "I love you too, beautiful," he says to her, before he sees her walk out of the door. Kai was sad to see her go, but at the same time releieved that Honor wouldn't get caught, he couldn't stand the thought of her going to jail for him. He sits there for a few moments, trying his best not to fall asleep, and fighting his natural instinct to give up. He had to pull through, and he manages to keep his eyes open for as long as it takes for an ambulance to arrive. When the medics come in, Kai starts to relax a little, and he finds himself drifting off to sleep, knowing that he's now definitely in safe hands and will be ok.

Honor had finally gotten the courage to go to the hospital and visit Kai. It wasn't that she didn't want to but she still felt an immense amount of guilt for what she had done. It didn't help that people were saying all kinds of things about the person who stabbed Kai. Even though they didn't know, except Matt, she still felt awful about it. She tried to tell herself that Kai still loved her no matter what but she had almost killed him. When she walks into the lobby, she's wearing a red cropped shirt and some high waisted blue jeans. Her hair was neatly placed behind her ears and she wore some red lipstick. She checked to see which room he was in and then took the elevator, waiting anxiously to see him. She hadn't seen him since the day it happened and that was too long for her but she knew everyone else would be there. She didn't want to risk anything. When she got there, she sighed and then walked down the hallway, knocking lightly on his door as she finally saw him. She had never seen him look like that before; in a hospital room hurt. "Hi." She said softly, smiling at him.

Honor walked over to him slowly and reached out her hand to grab his. She smiled at his touch. Everything about Kai made Honor light up inside, even something as simple as him holding her hand. "You don't look that bad. I thought you'd be a complete mess but still hot," she says jokingly. She sits down beside him, sighing a little. She saw the stitches and she immediately felt terrible again but she tried not to let it show. She had been in this position before, in the hospital but he was looking a lot paler than she did. "How are you?" She wanted to hug him and squeeze him but she didn't want to hurt him anymore than he already was. She was just glad to hear him making jokes and being happy.