It changed my life.why I missed out all these years is beyond me.

oh,i dunno. i never watched it until recently and it seemed to still be plenty to say about it.


it won me over with this...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gIo-DysAq4c


the sound..the sound.

i love the original dragonball. goku is completely innocent to everything and has no shame in being naked. needless to say,hilarity ensues.and he has got to be one of the cutest characters ever,even when beating the living daylights out of people.

in japanese he is even cuter.i love the sound he makes when something minor hurts him.

i love krillin. sure,he,like most non saiyins were useless after a certain point and time. but he was always brave.

in fact,he factors into something i was going to write here.
i think i have finally come to terms with my lot in life. i will be alone until the day i die and i am fine with that. i spent an hour or more today making a cubeecraft krillin figure. i didnt have to answer for my dorkiness or why a 35 year old man would do such a thing,i just did it.my time is mine and i really dont want to try satisfying anyone. sure, financial reasons make it nice to have a mate. most of the time my daughter is with me,and i devote that time to her. i could cheap out and make microwave meals,but i cook for her. i make everything from scratch. years later she may look back and see i was a total fuck up in all i did in life,except when it came to making a home for her. i think i set a good example of what a man is supposed to be. i respect her mother (even if she honestly doesnt deserve it) and i honestly do the the lion's share of parenting now. her mother gets her on the weekends and gets to be the "fun one". i do all the hard stuff and still listen and be non judgmental of her. my ex doesnt know that one of my daughter's closest friends is bi and would be disowned if her mother found out. if i was selfish,i could move to my old home time and instantly have my old life and probably a woman in my life. at this stage in life,if i did ever have another woman in my life,i'd have to deal with someone else's kids....and i dont want that. it sounds cold,but i dont. my daughter is a few years away from adulthood. mentally,she is already there. i've done my time. far earlier than i wanted to,mind you. i was a victim of the "bait and switch" technique. as soon as i moved away from my friends and family,the sex dried up and pretty much was used to keep me in check. looking back i should have known. truth be told,i was underage when i met what would become my ex. so here i am as an adult and have no idea how dating is supposed to work in the adult world. it bummed me out for awhile,but i stopped caring. there is more important things in life,like raising a healthy and semi well adjusted daughter. my life is as it is,and i've accepted and enjoy it. if i want to spend an hour doing papercraft,cool. if i want to keep firearms in the house? thats fine too.im my own person again and i dont see giving that up anytime soon.

yes,im way past drunk. and since i still share many mutual friends with my ex, this is where i can vent.

from experience i will say dont rush it. granted,i had a few girlfriends before the ex,but she was the one one to *ahem* make me a proper man of me. she is the one who wanted to have a child when i was only 21. (it was far earlier,but i gave in at 21.) i moved to south florida of my "own free will" right after high school graduation. a ten hour drive from all i knew and loved...you can count on your hand how many times we went back to visit in 14 years. i wont say love isnt worth it. but ensure you arent the only one giving something of yourself. there are some parts of yourself that never come back. i really dont want to sound like a whiner,but i was mentally abused. she honestly made it seem like like nobody else would want me,even though she was jealous of EVERY other woman in my life. to the point id barely even speak to other females.to this day she still holds a portion of power over me. i dont even know if its consciously. as i dont really see her as a bad person.but,she is very selfish. when she was cheating on me during our marriage? sje was looking at schools for our daughter in new jersey.even today, if i was to suggest my moving back to north florida? the shit would hit the fan. she gets to play house with someone she met,and i get to be the responsible one. she only picks up our daughter when its convenient for her . se gets to choose when she gets to be a parent.she's always been jealous of the relationship that our daughter and i have.it isnt that hard to have one like we do. just fucking LISTEN without getting emotional until you hear all the details. she just does not get this.

the bottle of oggun is gone now, and i've long since lost my train of thought.no woman is good enough to take all of your being without giving nothing of herself. relationships require some give and take. this can be a wonderful thing.people need to see each other for what they are,not what they want them to be.dont change someone and then hate what you have created.in short,be careful out there.

you want to avoid those "ive had my bad boy,now i want something else" girls as much as you can. they are all crazy. like with a capital C. you never want to be someone's "settlement" they still want that bad boy deep down. look for women and not girls. even at my age,this is hard to find.if i recall,you are in your early 20's....good luck,my man. you're going to need it.
every woman i have ever met in a club seems to only speak to me because i seem to be the least..dangerous to speak to.thats fine,as i do dig meeting people.its hard,but getting out of the friend zone requires either a very forward woman,or not allowing yourself to be put there...this is hard as ideally you want an intended lover to be a friend. long story short...become a monk. you get kick ass fighting skills,a cool robe and well,thats it.

that used to piss me off greatly. i had this one friend whom i had the biggest crush one. in fact,way back when i used her name for nina. she was a good friend and everyone thought it was something more,but it was not. she dated this one guy off and on that she seemed to hate,yet always get back with.
think about,if they date assholes exclusively,and you arent an asshole,how much do you really have in common? its just lust and wouldnt work anyway.


fuck online dating. if you are male? you are one of hundreds trying to get at these girls.do not waste your time.

that..is one of the mysteries of the world. in the risk of incurring the wrath of miss hannah for my broad brush strokes... women seem to want someone that is known to be desirable to other females. its sort of like looking for a job when you are unemployed. being unemployed is a HUGE mark against you. when married? i could have cheated on her six times over. but after the divorce? i dont exist.

posting to say that i'm leaving the forum for good now. it's just not the same anymore and the clique is more annoying than ever. certain members could write anything in an rp and everyone would cum in their pants with excitement, whereas others get no credit. there is no welcome carpet for new users, they post something (sometimes better than the average rp) and it gets ignored and eventually submerged under the sludge of threads by the more popular members. it's sad really but genocidal kind and rosejapanfan own this forum, everyone eats out of the palm of their hands.

i think if people dragged up their old rps and published them again, everyone would comment on what a good rp it was, regardless of it's content. nobody reads them. the first thing everyone does is check who posted, then skim through it and post a generic reply.

the past 3-4 years on here have been a blast. but i'm 21 now and just super bored of rp.

farewell

Edited by user 02 April 2015 07:18:48(UTC)  | Reason: Not specified

let's face it, this place has continued to degrade and erode for the past two years or so. the fracture/clique on here has caused so many quality users to leave. i can honestly say there are 3 or 4 active users that i haven't interacted with (and they've made no effort to do so either) for about two years and in some cases ever. legit, how many threads are started by new people each month and how many stay? very little because of the ignorance of the whole "you don't read my work i'm not reading yours". you cna speak all day about irony and hypocrisy but it's childish.

you said if you comment on peoples work, there is a mutual obligation to do the same back. that explains why i commented selectively on two users' work. it works both ways. the issue tends to be the same until people are forced out.

you know it, we all know it, you could write the biggest amount of shite and people would be telling you how amazing it was. that's not to discredit you or your work at all. you yourself pulled an experiment a few years back which proved this.

anyway, that isn't the reason for leaving. it's been coming for a while now, like i said i've just grown out of rp.