This whole thing will take longer than it should. I remember feeling this way. I remember being 12 years old and finding ways to alter myself so that I could meet the standards to do what I love. Sometimes I think maybe we should just ignore it. Maybe we should have let them remove Dae Na Geum from the group. We should have just made a whole new album, something they would like. We should have just let them carry out their will. Because this is what I loved. It hurts so much watching from the sidelines. I miss releasing records! I miss filming videos! I miss anxiously waiting for the music charts every Sunday!

But then I remember that I'm on tour. I remember that I have to perform in the morning and I remember how amazing the shows are. I remember all the people in the crowds cheering me on. I remember all of the people who cry at the meet and greets. I even remember reading the kind words from fans in cute letters. And then I realize, there are people who genuinely care for my wellbeing. I mean more to them than I think I do to myself. If I was on my own I would have done exactly what I did at adolescence and changed every little thing about me whether or not I liked it, just so I can find my place in this business, because it's the only way to do what I love. But it's different from then. So many people look up to me now. The last thing I want to remember is how I betrayed them.

고생 끝에 낙이 온다
여동생

"Happiness comes at the end of suffering.. little sister"