"I'm in an open relationship with three other people and as wild as that sounds, I haven't felt this lonely in a long time." Billy smokes the remainder of his joint and tilts his head back, wondering why he's even confessing stuff like this to Chris. He hardly knows him and hasn't divulged this information to anyone besides his best friend, Dustyn. "I'm just one big mess that nobody really has the time for anymore. This whole open relationship was sort of like damage control. Trying to pull together and get everyone on deck, on the same page but...I don't think it's working. If anything, it's just made me a burden for even more people." Billy stubs up his joint in his glass ashtray and listens to Chris, understanding where he's coming from but Billy was on a different page. The last thing he wants is a relationship with strings attached. He doesn't want to offer Chris something he can't give. Life is messy enough. "Oh yeah I get you but I wasn't meaning really anything deep. Believe me, I can't afford to get tangled into more mess. I just thought...maybe...you just wanted something one-off. Some sort of...release?" Billy smiles and playfully ruffles Chris' hair. "It's alright if you don't want to but we have the house to ourselves and I'll still be friends with you regardless of the outcome so we can make the most of tonight if you want to? Plus...I would be lying if I didn't say that I was curious about how you kiss." Billy chuckles and playfully winks at Chris. He's down for anything whether it's platonic or sexual. There's nothing that will shock Billy or make him feel uncomfortable. If Chris wants to be his new bff and movie partner, he's down. If Chris wants to bend him over and fuck him on the spot, he's down.

Billy is a lot deeper than one would think. It's just that he has layers upon layers of defense and has the ability to totally detach from his emotions. There is a lot of psychological issues going on with him but when he is actually centred and calm, he is able to get reflective and in touch with himself. Billy does not like that at all. He can't handle strong emotions, failure, weakness and the likes. It's why he abuses a lot of drugs, picks fights with others and swamps himself with work at the record label. Anything to distract and deflect from himself. "I feel like I'm just supposed to be this constant nuisance to people. When I'm not breaking down and I have my emotional wall up, I'm "cold", I'm a "bastard", I'm "evil" to people. When I do actually talk about my mental health and my issues, I'm "attention seeking" and "playing the victim". It's like no matter what I do it's never good enough for people." Billy sighs and shakes his head with a little smirk appearing on his face. "I said I didn't want to get all introspective at the start of the night. I've turned into a right soppy cunt, haven't I?" Billy laughs, trying his best to lift up the mood and also shut down conversation. It's getting a little too close to a nerve for him. He already fears he's shown a little too much emotion to Chris. Billy tilts his head to the side, chuckling at Chris. "Practice kissing? Is that like some sort of "no homo" thing? It's not faggy if it's for practice?" Billy laughs softly and smiles at Chris, reaching a hand out to stroke his friend's cheek. "Kiss me...for practice, of course..."

"Well it's 2019. Who really gives a fuck about labels and who sticks what where? I sure won't tell if you won't." Billy chuckles and lightly kisses Chris, gently caressing his cheek as he does so. Billy's hand remains on Chris' face for the duration, giving a very light and tender touch. It's a habit for Billy and while he uses it for passion now, it's a move he learned for a more conceited purpose. Back when Weekend first started and his dating life was the hottest topic, Billy made sure that when he kissed in public, he'd put one hand on the other person's face so that the camera would only focus on his beautiful face and not the other person. If he was in better focus in the picture than his significant other, the story would be more likely centred around him. Hearing Chris compliment and encourage him between kisses makes Billy want to give him more. It's rare to hear people genuinely care for him and hearing it out loud is really pulling at his heart. "When I have my "mask" on, I seem too abrasive. When I open up, I feel too vulnerable...like a hermit crab out of its shell. I don't know if I'll ever find that happy medium." Billy sighs and rests his forehead against Chris' and speaks softly. "I'm happy right now though," he whispers before returning the deep and passionate kiss. Their lips lock and Billy's hand runs through Chris' hair while his tongue softly swirls over Chris'. While a passionate kiss, Billy somehow manages to make it feel very delicate too. He has very soft lips and skin plus he knows how to work the rhythm of the tongues. It's Billy Khan after all. He's a sex God. A lot of guys can be too abrasive when it comes to the smooching but with Billy it's almost angelic and he's enjoying Chris' too. He breaks the heated kiss and asks "You good?" to make sure Chris was still comfortable with it. It's clear that there is a sexual spark in the kissing.

"I'm not really the soft and cuddly type but I have my moments." Billy says with a little chuckle, giving Chris a tight squeeze of a hug. Billy is great when it comes to sexual pleasure but the "soft" stuff like caressing and cuddling, he's a little more anxious about. He thinks it's a little too soppy and almost weak which is why he's reluctant to be like that a lot. Billy listens to Chris, almost giggling as he detects the nervousness in his friend's voice. It's clear this guy doesn't want anything up him. "Well..." Billy begins, giving Chris several little kisses on the cheek. "You can keep your arse as an exit but if you're wanting a suck or something, I'm down for that." Billy's eyes drop down to Chris' crotch before looking him in the eye, whispering gently by his ear. "Or...you can fuck me if you want? I bet you're great at it." Billy smirks and starts to move down, kissing and nuzzling on Chris' neck. Through his sweatpants, a raging boner presses up against Chris as they smooch. "Tell me to fuck off if you've had enough." he says in a soft whisper again. It's clear that Billy really wants something to happen but will respect if Chris declines.