He wholeheartedly agreed with Ellie's perspective on the simple vainness that came from awarding someone based on their looks. The simple subjectiveness of beauty standards and attraction was enough to make the entire concept of it off-putting, particularly in this day and age. "I agree with you. I don't see the point in such a distinction. It seems rather antiquated. I truly only care to be attractive to the person I'm with on a romantic level. I don't care for public adoration of my looks." In his twenties and thirties, he tend to find solace in that admiration he received from women. It was a welcome to not be alone, whether that came from his looks or career or a combination of the two was up for debate. Now as he’s gotten older, that attention no longer perked his interest. Ryan smirked and shook his head at the mention of his age. "You probably had me at that sweet point of my life. Now I’m finding gray hairs most days and having slight lower back pain." He admitted in a joking tone. He was comfortable being 43, but for a few years there he was trying to fight the passing of time. The age gap between the two when they dated was never a bother for either of them within the constraints of their relationship, yet everyone seemed to grasp at the strings of that. He found the accusations towards him upsetting, but what truly got to him was all the commentary made toward Ellie-Grace.
A part of him was dreading being back in the limelight. He was aware that it was just a part of his job, albeit one he hated. Ryan got quiet for a moment as she spoke about her first record. He knew that if he felt a burden from it, it was a lot worse for her as a young, up-and-coming artist, being violently thrown into this vicious industry. Regardless of the tabloids tearing them apart, he took responsibility that at the end of the day it all rested on his shoulders. If their relationship had survived back then, there would have been comfort in proving everybody wrong who were against their romance from the start. When things ended, it was a huge field day for the press and everyone else who bet against them. He knows he could have handled things better. He could have shown more kindness. "I understand that. I know that wasn't an easy time for you," he began, his eyes dropping for a moment to stare down his glass. "I'll always cherish that time. I would never take an eraser to that period in my life because regardless of everything else that was hurtful and not quite ideal, I got the chance to meet you." He said in a more somber tone, purposely not going into much detail about that time span, although simultaneously realizing that it was a conversation they should have at some point. It was something that he knew he carried a lot of regrets and pain from still. "If you want to experience that together, let me know. I'll bring some stiff drinks along." He added with a laugh, trying to clear up the air.
"Oh, of course! The character of it is intact. Aside from adding electricity to the building, the only changes done were to improve isolation, and acoustically treat the architectural environment. It still very much looks like a barn and I upkeep certain elements of it. You should come out sometime. There's a lot of tranquility to be found there." He smiled, being reminded of one of her passions. He felt as if she would like how life looked out in Montana given her appreciation for vintage aesthetics. "The walk alone from my house to that barn is worth it. The mountain range in the background, the sounds of the Yellowstone river flowing. It's impossible not to get creative with that atmosphere around you." He commented, knowing well that not many thought of that state much, but he had grown to love it. Funny enough, he purchased his property up north shortly after their break-up as a way to find some peace and quiet from all the noise happening in his life at the time. "Fuck off, Ellie." He told her, twitching his eye more noticeably. "You have this thing about you where I can't say no to you. I hate it." Ryan said sarcastically as he giggled.
Ryan walked over to open the partition towards his yard, one of the large glass windows sliding open and acting as a door. The view was something he appreciated here, seeing the twilight of the sun fading behind the valley to create this moody effect in the clear early evening and the temperature was perfect to be outside. Along with the large infinity pool, the yard was immaculate with a ranch-like feel, an array of different plants to give the place a more open-air feel. There was a cabana structure to the side with some lounging chairs and a long, low-back couch to match. "Ah, this is a better smell, isn't it? Utter privilege in the air." He remarked after taking a deep breath as he cracked a grin knowing most of his neighbors were successful individuals, many who lived in their own bubbles of obliviousness.