Artist: Layla
Title: happy!
Genre: Electronica, Dream Pop, Alternative
Length: 3:15
Writer(s): L.Sanchez
Producer: BLOOM
Label: Five Pesky Kids
From The Album: The Human Experience
INFORMATION"happy!" is a song recorded by American singer-songwriter Layla. It serves as the tenth and final track on her second studio album, "The Human Experience". The song was written solely by Layla while production was handled by BLOOM. The pair have worked extensively together throughout Layla's run as a solo recording artist, with BLOOM producing over half of "The Human Experience". Flores had already produced the track on his own time before bringing it to Sanchez during one of their sessions in late 2023. Immediately compelled by BLOOM's composition, Layla took the track and crafted a song around it within the hour. The vocal heard on "happy!" is the original, one-take recording from that session. Due to the downbeat composition and raw nature of the lyrics, Sanchez and Flores made a conscious decision not to revisit or retouch the vocals, wanting to keep an organic and authentic feeling to the sound. Although infusing elements of electronica in parts, "happy!" has been described as the "one true ballad" of its parent album.
Lyrically, "happy!" details a list of Layla's fears, wants and grievances that she wishes to completely conquer and shed throughout her pursuit of achieving happiness. Structurally, it doesn't follow the typical pop record set up, composing of two sixteen-lined "rhyming list" verses and few simple chorus lines, omitting any pre-choruses, bridges, ad-libs and backing vocals. "happy!" sees Layla touch upon subjects such as; her love life, body image, trolls, politics, mental health, dangers within the music industry, war, all but to name a few. While Sanchez is often seen as an open public figure, the track reveals information which she has previously never divulged before, such as her revelation in regards to having feelings for an unnamed older man, how she worries about her calorie intake despite trying to be an advocate for body positivity and diversity, and her struggles with faith.
"happy!" is a downtempo, piano driven Dream Pop track with "subdued" and sparse production. The vocals are completely raw and unedited, recording in one take back in 2023. Due to the off-the-cuff nature of the recording, the intonation and emotion of Sanchez's voice flips and soars in an organic way, allowing listeners to hear her natural vocal cracks, anger, sadness and true guttural feelings as she lambasts, pines and belts in segments where she evidently saw fit. Amongst the simple piano progressions lays a short synthesised segment that needles in briefly after each chorus. These programmed synths are "understated" and sound almost "muted" within the production, as if not breaking through to their full potential and intended purpose of lifting the mood of the song, allowing the track to still sound sombre in tone with just a niggling anticipation of hope lingering in the background.
SONG COMMENTARYLayla wrote:"This song was one of those occasions where it was totally off the dome, from the soul, just poured out of me down the microphone. Cristian and I were in the studio and he played me this beat and, I don't know why, but I just got totally emotional. With absolutely no vocals, just the simple backing track, it spoke to me. While there's electronic aspects of the song, they're very subdued and it plays out in a way that just emanates a melancholy aura. The track sounded like it should've been meant for a summer night out in Miami but something had gone awry. Like it was trying to break out into this bigger, party anthem in parts but was just too weighed down to. I've literally been there. I'm a Miami girl, I've had my heart broken in the place, I've been caught out in the abysmal rain there, I've been invited to all sorts of beach and boat parties where I'm pretending to have a good time but I've been feeling so heavy on the inside. That's what the backing track evoked feelings and memories of. I tried explaining that to Cristian and, bless him, he was being supportive and nodding along but that wasn't his intention at all when he made the beat. He had no idea where my emotional pull came from but he was so glad that it spoke to me. So, off into the booth I went."
"I didn't pen anything down. I just listened to the track over and over again, mentally banking thoughts and ideas that popped into my head with each repeat. I went in with the feelings of sadness and the urge of wanting to push through that, to shed the weight of things that got me down. That's what the track stirred in me so that's how I approached it. Basically, the song is a huge venting spree! It's like word vomit, for lack of better term. If I was going to do one song that aired out all my grievances and was the musical equivalent of writing down things in a letter and then burning it, it had to be as raw and honest as possible. It couldn't be refined. It HAD to be like this big list of crap I wanted to share and to shed. No, I don't like the idiots who feel the need to leave horrible comments. No, I don't like that I still struggle with my body image. No, I'm not a fan of the people in power. No, I don't love the fact I'm finding myself in the most complex situations all the time. It's crappy stuff and they don't deserved to be polished and wrapped up in pretty little bows for pop radio. They deserved to be chewed up and spat out down the microphone."
"For the longest time, I knew that this had to be the album closer. Over the course of the listening journey, I've been coquettish, badass, the villain, goofy, girlfriend material, the relationship wrecker, the relationship saviour - stuff that might make people giggle, smile or think that I'm this really cool chick. It's all pockets of amplified versions of myself. For closing out the album, I wanted to bring it back down to earth and leave the listeners pondering a few things whether that's me or about their own lives. The whole concept of "The Human Experience" is that it's a ride, but like every ride, there's the big dips, the rushes, the drops, the twirls, the spins...but then they wind down as the come back into the platform. "happy!" is that stripped back reminder at the end of the rush that says sometimes you have to take a step back and sit in your feelings. You can't keep putting on a façade and keep pushing otherwise you'll burn out. I wanted this song to reflect that even though there's a bunch of stuff I can laugh about, talk about freely, and have a decent handle on, I'm still figuring out and navigating a mountain of other problems. We all are. Nobody has all the answers in the search for happiness."
"happy!"I hate that I always seem to want what can't be mine
That things slip away through the passage of time
I loathe that there's some things I can't put to bed
Can't stand it lives on forever on the internet
I don't enjoy that constant search for perfection
Or that I misinterpret the slightest hint of affection
My shoulders hurt from the generational trauma
Sick of my name being synonymous with drama
I'm too nervous to do the rest of this on my own
But I don't wanna be an opportunist's stepping stone
Exhausted of waking up to a newsfeed full of problems
Terrified that my God ain't real enough to solve them
Heartbroken by the devastation on my TV screen
Tired of opening up my messages to something obscene
I fear the hand looming over the big red button
And that all the kicking back will be for nothing
Perhaps there will come a time
A time where it's easy to digest
A time where I won't digress
Where I won't look over there
Where I won't sit in despair
Perhaps...
Now I've got a thing for a dashing older man
Whatever happened to a straightforward one night stand?
Dread to think of what my therapist will unpack
Don't think I have the capacity for more of that
Well, at least it's more information to overshare
I drop soundbites like I'm somebody who doesn't care
I strive to be a beacon of body positivity
Just a shame I break a sweat over these calories
Can't stand the assholes who leave cruel comments down below
And the morons who get all flustered over a rainbow
I despise that there's no safeguards in this industry
That our misery is someone else's entire economy
Sometimes I wonder why I have to keep my ego checked
When I've fought tooth and claw, climbed out of every wreck
I'm scared I'll never differentiate love and lust
Frightened that one day, I'll find that my bubble's burst
Perhaps there will come a time
A time where it's easy to digest
A time where I won't digress
Where I won't look over there
Where I won't sit in despair
Perhaps there will come a time
A time where there's clarity
Where the fog stops shrouding me
A time where I reach out
A time where I'm allowed
Oh, to be happy now
Can I be happy now?
Can I be happy now?
Can Be Compared To: