Shattered Dreams (feat Jack Straw) (3:13)
Katie's commentsThis was another song that I was originally reluctant to include on the album. Number one, because it's about Nicole....and I love Nicole, and this song is all about the hurt and pain she caused me previously. It's not applicable any more. And number two, because it's a rap metal song. I am no rapper, or heavy metal girl, but at the time I wrote it, I was in a horrid mood, and it came out really jumpy and loud and heavy...so that's how it ended up I guess. It's different anyway, you can't say I'm boring.
Again, this one continues the story, and despite my misgivings, it's a good way to start to bring it to an end. The songs previous were sort of the middle if you will, whereas this starts the conclusion. If breaking up with Vanity was a terrible time in my life, I think this was the only thing that was worse. My dream had always been to make my own album. It would just be Katie and a hollow bodied acoustic guitar. I knew how it would sound, and I knew it would be wonderful, and perfect, and Katie. And then this happened. Nicole broke my arm to the extent I may never play guitar again. And at the time I was devastated. My perfect album was gone, just like that. And that's where the title came from.
My favourite lyric in the song is to do with birdies talking. It has a treble meaning, which I'll tell you about now. Number 1: The birdies, where this sorry fiasco all began. 2. the chirping press with their snapping beaks (cameras), and 3. Tweeting/twitter, where the fall out with Nicole, and subsequently the whole thing which this song is about, started.
Again, I had Jack with me on this song, and I'd like to thank him, he was wonderful.
Oh....and it's totally NOT a rap metal song...I was kidding haha
Track descriptionThis song begins with a loud bang on a drum, one bang only, and then followed by a fast guitar and keyboard riff. This plays for a while before Katie's vocals come in, with the music stopping just in time.
Verse (1) begins, and is sung very slowly, and each line feels almost cut into two as she takes a break, and we can actually hear her breathing, sighing loudly in between. The only instrument playing is a softly picking guitar (acoustic) in the background.
A high pitched keyboard comes in and plays an interlude between verse (1) and (2), as the guitar returns to strumming chords, but this time in a more reserved manner, much slower and without the volume from the beginning.
Verse (2) is sung to the accompaniment of the same guitar piece, but she sings this one a lot slower, and with a lower, deeper tone. The lines have the same breaks, and the same sighs, with the only real difference being at the end of the last line, where the music stops, and the guitar plays just one slow chord as she finishes singing the last word.
Then the quick intro returns, with keyboard and guitar, this time accompanied by drums, and the (.pc) pre chorus is sung in a surprisingly happy tone, which defies the theme of the song, and very very quickly, with the first line running straight into the second and the the third into the fourth without breaks.
The music stops and there is silence for 2 seconds, which feels like an age.
In the (c) chorus, there is a single, very loud guitar chord played on each of the first two words, before it picks a quick, complicated riff for the send half of the line, and strums for the second line which is sung without a breath being taken. The next three lines are sung with just the strumming of the guitar, and a little drum accompaniment. The last line is sung without music, very slowly, and in a very sad, alone sounding tone. There is then a brief silence.
It repeats the same method for the second half of the chorus (c).
Verse (3) is a lot faster than (1), it doesnt have the same breaks and sighs in it, and the guitar plays a much more upbeat style strumming riff.
Verse (4) is almost the same as three, but a drum fill just before it begins heralds the return of the drums, which play throughout the verse, accompanying the guitar riff.
Then the quick intro returns, with keyboard and guitar, this time accompanied by drums, and the (.pc) pre chorus is sung in a surprisingly happy tone, which defies the theme of the song, and very very quickly, with the first line running straight into the second and the the third into the fourth without breaks.
(.c) as above
Verse (5) is the same as verse (1) completely.
Verse (6) comes in after a very loud drum fill, and plays on the same way as (4)
Then the quick intro returns, with keyboard and guitar, this time accompanied by drums, and the (.pc) pre chorus is sung in a surprisingly happy tone, which defies the theme of the song, and very very quickly, with the first line running straight into the second and the the third into the fourth without breaks.
Silence for about 15 to 20 seconds, and then a massive drum fill, then the keyboard comes back in, and then the guitar once again, as they build up to a crescendo.
(.c) as above
Lyrics(1)Oh, the pressure was on when I called for a friend
Where I needed to cry you had an empty to lend
From the start you were with me, and guided my hand
But what you've gone and done now, it was not part of the plan
(2)Now the birdies are talking, they snap beaks in the night
You say you wanted to help but you just added more fright
To the hell I was living.... in a media haze
I looked to you for advice and you just handed them praise
(.pc)And when the push came to the shove
It's fight or flight, (pick from above)
I stand my ground right through
I won't back down to yoooouuuuuuuuuu
I make mistakes, but I want you to show
The loyalty I showed you
(.c)Smash! Bang! Once you came in
Katie what you're doing's all such a sin
Knocked down! Don't get back up!
What I'm doing here, it's not a hiccup
Thump! Slap! Look at you bitch
Head is spinning I don't know
which way is which
My dreams are shattered by you
Yes my world was shattered by you
(3)You thought it was a joke when you ran your mouth
It's the funny kind of thing that I could live without
I'm losing my cool and I'm losing my mind
But all I really needed was for you to be kind.
(4)And now you tell me, you're coming round here
You're gonna beat up Katie, just cos she's queer
I'm just not as brave as you think
And now the bloody river, it flows in my sink
(.pc)And when the push came to the shove
It's fight or flight, (pick from above)
I stand my ground right through
I won't back down to yoooouuuuuuuuuu
I make mistakes, but I want you to show
The loyalty I showed you
(.c)Smash! Bang! Once you came in
Katie what you're doing's all such a sin
Knocked down! Don't get back up!
What I'm doing here, it's not a hiccup
Thump! Slap! Look at you bitch
Head is spinning I don't know
which way is which
My dreams are shattered by you
Yes my world was shattered by you
(5)You burst in then and hit me hard
I thought you had marked my card
Curling up tightly into a ball
I dunno what you intended at all
(6)It was then I felt my dream getting ripped
From my mind and my conscious mind as you slipped
And you hit me hard and shattered my arm
If you wanted to destroy, it worked like a chaaaarrrm
(.pc)And when the push came to the shove
It's fight or flight, (pick from above)
I stand my ground right through
I won't back down to yoooouuuuuuuuuu
I make mistakes, but I want you to show
The loyalty I showed you
(.c)Smash! Bang! Once you came in
Katie what you're doing's all such a sin
Knocked down! Don't get back up!
What I'm doing here, it's not a hiccup
Thump! Slap! Look at you bitch
Head is spinning I don't know
which way is which
My dreams are shattered by you
Yes my world was shattered by you
