Erica slowly takes her hand from Natalya's leg. The coldness reminds her of the tone Natalya's voice had when she confronted her about kissing Nichole. She concentrates hard on driving, even though her watery eyes are determined to make it hard for her. " I am sorry,Natalya. Other than being married to me,are you ok? How are you feeling? We can't have you being too stressed,....the baby." She starts to panic, swearing if she even entertains the thought of Natalya miscarrying it will happen.

"Ok",natycakes." Erica says while driving. She keeps driving wordlessly and without turning the radio on until they pull in to where the duke is docked. " Nats,please don't be angry with me. I can't help how I feel. " she says as she puts the car in neutral and pulls handbrake

erica looks over to natalya and kisses her shoulder. "in my heart,i know you wouldnt. nobody is that evil." she lets out a long sigh. "but the miscarriage made me feel like such a failure. fucking crackheads can carry babies to term. nichole was raped god knows how many times and she is still carrying her babies....i just feel like such ......worthlessness.i guess underneath it all..i am a horrid person." she finishes quietly.

erica hugs her tightly. "i love you so much,natalya dobros hess. you are the one person in this sick and sorry world i can count on to be be there for me." she rubs natalya's stomach lightly. "i cannot thank you enough for doing this for us.from now on,i will not hold my thoughts from you,no matter how absurd." she lets out a tiny laugh. "natycakes,you can ask me anything.anything" she smiles at her wife.

"i love you,natycakes. you are so damn wonderful.i think i should be fine. finally telling you,it feels like i can breathe again!" erica smiles. very relieved that she doesnt have a secret anymore.she is terrible at keeping secrets. when natalya asks her question,erica's first thought is she doesnt want her name anymore. "....ok,natycakes. you have to live with the name,you might as well be happy with it!" she smiles.

erica lets out a huge sigh. "oh thank fuck. i seriously thought you wanted to go back to dobros. it is a beautiful name and i love it,but i thought you were having second thoughts about being mine.i would love for you to be a kobayashi!" erica says happily. "in fact,i should drop the hess too.as close as erich and i still are,we need that separation....i am sure ada would appreciate it too!" erica kisses natalya's cheek happily. "natalya kobayashi....it sounds very pretty."

Erica cups Natalya's head and kisses the top of it. " our baby...I like that. You are brilliant,natycakes. It will be part you and have my last name. You totally solved a huge problem." Erica says happily. It will certainly be hard not to feel connected to a baby that shares her name. Erica kisses her again." Lets get you some food,mommy." Erica squeals.

Erica hugs her for a long time,quietly sniffling. "Natycakes." She says,finally letting go so she can wipe her eyes. " where do you keep your halo? You are simply angelic!" Erica holds her again. "Yup,we will be the best family ever.what do you feel like you are having?" She asks,looking at Natalya's still flat tummy.

"You are sweeter than I deserve."Erica says,looking at Natalya's blue eyes and smiling. Erica isn't sure if Natalya ever even thinks about Nichole and her,but Erica still feels guilty about it. In the hug,Erica Kisses Natalya's cheeks. "A girl." She says instantly. " I want a tiny little you. Think about it,three princesses in the same castle." Erica giggles.

erica giggles. talking about the baby makes her very excited. "we will to make a trip to russia so your dad can see our handiwork." she says,already making plans in her head for that trip. then she starts thinking. "um,naty...we are good people...right? you dont think people will try to take our baby from us..do you?" she asks worriedly.