Honor sees him in the kitchen and her stomach gets in knots but she wasn't backing out. She took the tea and shook her head. "I should stand, you stay seated." She takes a sip to calm her nerves and then sighs. "I haven't been honest with you. I've been such a shit person for a while and now I'm a shit girlfriend. I just want you to know that I love you so much but I need to come clean." She paused and stared at him.

"I wish, trust me." Honor sighed again and then just blurted it out. "I- I've been cheating on you..." She felt the air get tighter in the room now, as if she were going to pass out now. But no, she had to see this to the end. No more lying, no more deception. She was being honest with him. "With Kai. I told you that I stopped being friends with him but I lied...I'm so sorry." She pleads with Alec in her eyes, even though she knew it woild probably do no damage control. She wasn't one to think ahead but she had thought about what could happen after this for months now.

"A few months." She watched to see what his reaction would be. Not sure if he would yell or just get really upset, she just wasn't sure what he'd do or say next. "I know nothing I say or do right now will do any good or change anything but I am sorry."

Honor wanted to lie to save her ass but what would be the point? She nodded and then realized he wasn't looking at her so she said, "Yes," and then sighed. She sat the tea down, not really thirsty or hungry even though she had a throbbing headache going on right now. He was quiet, too quiet and almost calm. She didn't like that. She could handle yelling and name calling but he was eerily calm and not blowing up at her.

It was a good question, what did she think he'd do? Of course she told because she felt guilty but she didn't know what he'd do exactly. "I don't know. I just wanted to tell you because you deserve to know the truth and do whatever you want with it. I put you in a terrible position, I know that. I just thought...there was no point in keeping it a secret anymore." She could tell he was starting to get angry, the way his voice raised.

"I told you because it was....I just told you. I'm not seeing him tomorrow if that's what you mean. I'm not going to keep cheating. I realize after this that we'll probably be finished but I'm not just going to go ride off into the sunset with Kai. It's what I meant last night, I'm going to go home and just, I don't know." She was sure Kai would be upset and so would Alec so in her mind, the best thing to do right now was to just distance herself from both of them.

"I didn't know what else to do, I figured you wouldn't want me around so why not assume I should leave?" Honor rubbed her temple and then looked up at him. She could tell he was hurt even though his voice sounded pissed. There was no escaping the look she saw in his eyes. "Would it really make a difference if I wasn't?" She knew Alec was just beating himself up by asking such questions. No person really wanted to know if their significant other was in love with the person they cheated on them with, so she wasn't going to really answer that but she'd answer him truthfully as to why she did it. "Because me and Kai we're alike. I'm never going to be anyone else by who I am now. I'll never transform into some sophisticated woman, I'm always going to be the girl who loves to party, stay out late sometimes, get completely trashed, travel the world and not really staying in one place. Our lives, as much as we tried to combine them, they don't fit. Yes, this is a shit way of telling you this, but I'm sorry. I love both of you, I loved both of you. But I don't want to go back and forth anymore or sneak around."

Honor jumps a little when he throws the bowl into the sink. "That's not what I meant." She just looked down and just nodded, doing her best not to cry in front of him. "Yeah." She said softly then stood there for a little before deciding to go and grab her stuff. She sighed. She had made a bigger mess of things now. She was sure Alec hated her. Erica definitely hated her. She couldn't bring herself to go face Kai, and she didn't want to tell her brothers about this either. Now she had to go upstairs and get her stuff. "Fuck." She said groaning. And all of this while she still had a headache. She walked upstairs finally, going into the bedroom and grabbing the bags she had already packed, along with her purse.

Honor had been staying with her father for the past few days until she was able to stay on her own. She actually enjoyed the company since her brothers were away and she was alone most of the time. She was laid out on the couch, comfortably, as she tried to find something to entertain her on the television. She had asked Kai to come over simply because she wanted to see him and also to sort of tell him the news about her and Alec and what that meant for them in the future. When she hears a knock at the door, she figures it's Kai so she hops off the couch and straightens herself before answering the door. Dressed in some sweatpants and a white tank top, she smiled a little at him. "Hey."

"I'm great, you?" She makes room for him to walk inside. Her father wasn't there so it was just her, alone, which she had come to like. He was usually working or something so she had this huge place to herself most evenings. Honor had tied her hair in a braided ponytail which ran down the side of her neck. She hadn't seen Kai since Paris and she had a feeling that he was preoccupied with Faith. It was funny, he had came clean and she did nothing while Alec dumped her. It was funny at least to her.