Originally Posted by: Raphaela I take acid occasionally and smoke weed and suddenly I'm the biggest junkie on the forum? I hate the fact that if you talk about how drunk you get everyody cheers, but if you say you take something that's been considered the chemical that does less harm to your body than any other, it causes this.
And I didn't even say it was an illegal drug that gave me that feeling, it was a regular medication you can buy at any drugstore, and that got me addicted probably because of my trauma of throwing up (a trauma that has been getting cured by my acid sessions).
And Aj, I don't think you know one bit of how it is to be me in a country like mine. You have no idea what I go through every day, and the reasons that make me go for the illegal stuff. I take risks every day, but I can say I wouldn't be alive if it wasn't for the enlightment entheogens gave me. I'm not even atheist anymore.
Honestly Raph, I think it's more that you don't really post on here as much as you used to, & the few times that you have recently have often mentioned drugs in some form or another. And it's nothing about offence. I don't think anybody takes offence at what you do to your own body, or even you mentioning it on here. Now I'm not going to say I know what every other fucker here is thinking because I lack the ability to read minds (fortunately. I've never really rated mind-reading as a particularly positive trait to have. Unless you had amazing filters on it you'd quickly go fucking insane from hearing everybodies worst thoughts, & who wants that shit?) but I'm going to guess that Gildy's (why do I call him Gildy? It's a fucking awful thing to say. I won't do that again) initial comment which started all this was at least slightly tinged with humour, perhaps with a serious suggestion mixed up in it. And y'know, you just said you were worried you were hooked on something so I don't think the suggestion of "rely on drugs less" is necessarily a bad one. He even said "less" rather than anything more absolute like "BECOME TEETOTAL (or straight edge as the goofy kids like to call it these days)!" Ultimately it's a conclusion people come to based on a tiny sample size of what you post on here. I mean if you read my posts you'd come to the conclusion I can be a bit of an asshole at times would be...bad example, that's actually true. But you hopefully see what I'm saying
I'm not going to tell you what to do because you're half way across the world. I (& others) may make suggestions at times out of basic human decency & concern because hey, misuse of drugs, legal or illegal, can fuck you up. It's a fact. Alcohol, tobacco, smack, weed, cocadamol from the pharmacy MDMA, whatever, it can do you damage. I can't remember how old you are but I think you are either still under 20 or maybe 20ish. You first got into weed in the the this current iteration of the board has been up, right? About 3 years? Well I'd be a little worried for you in that case because most recent studies suggest taking drugs when you're a teen, when your brain is it's most plastic, doing its most development is the worst time to do drugs. But whatever, it's your brain, your body, ultimately your choice. It's not unknown for me to self-medicate with alcohol, be it when dealing with social anxiety, or depression, or even just fucking plain boredom. But I dunno, I've never really felt the need to mention it here because I'm not proud of needing some sort of narcotic crutch to deal with every day situations. I think it's pitiful to be honest. And I'm not judging you when I say this, I am merely passing judgement on myself.
I'm pretty fucking liberal when it comes to drugs. Alcohol is my vice of choice (mainly out of convenience really, I don't have any drug dealer hook-ups, while alcohol is easy to find & purchase), you can do whatever the fuck you want. If you make a rational decision to shoot up enough smack to kill an elephant, that's your business. I can agree with your point about the disproportionate reactions to alcohol & drugs from some quarters but I'm not sure that's so relevant here. I mean the Paul that I know would just as freely make a comment about someone using alcohol too often as he would someone using whatever the fuck else. Ditto me, I remember previously raising (mild) concerns about Lewis's mad party/drink/drug/fucking binges (remember Lewis?) to him. And as a counter-point, people of a certain generation can be just as...what's the right term? keen on cheering the use of cannabis. "Yo does anyone else love to get high & sit outside with your laptop playing games?" being a recent example of a thread starter here by a total newcomer. Stoners seem to have a tendency often to point out how they like to game high, & walk high & listen to music high & masturbate high until you wonder if there's anything they can do sober anymore & that's also really silly. Not to mention kind of dull.
I've gone on so long that I've lost the point. Drugs. Do them, don't do them, your business. But if you do post about it in a public forum, & it's not the 4:20.com message board, someone may well show concern if you
seem to be using regular.
Edited by user 27 September 2012 08:31:03(UTC)
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