Erica listens carefully to Nichole's Dilemma . She knew Nichole was creative. But she never knew to what degree. There were so many pieces of paper! all with interesting sounding titles. " I would suggest a double,or even a triple album. Of course..." Erica trails off while examining her nails, " an entire album of songs about me would work." Erica cackles loudly. The last song Erica heard about herself was rather scathing,if blatantly honest. Which is one thing Erica loved about Nichole and castors music. It was always honest. Erica inhales a small,but audible breath at the kiss. She was in full star stuck mode seeing Nichole work,and it made even a small kiss seem earth moving. Erica smiles and lifts Nichole's hair off of her neck gently. " you don't have to do anything you don't wish to do,coleykins. You've done two perfect albums,you can be put out to stud now." Erica giggles and leans down to kiss Nichole's neck. " of course, you don't want those SYNCO girls picking up pianos and trying to steal your spotlight,do you?" She says jokingly.

"People would be Be More like "Ew,an album about Erica." Erica giggles again. Their relationship was tainted in the public eye,but Erica didnt care. Erica feels the little quiver as she kisses Nichole's neck and up towards her ear." I love you too,Nichole. You are my everything." She whispers into the ear.erica purposely uses Nichole's name instead of her pet name. Erica wanted her to know she was beyond puppy love. Erica lets herself topple over onto Nichole's lap.she instantly caresses Nichole's cheek with the back of her hand,Nichole was beautiful to her. " nobody can do abortions and abuse like you,that is so very true. I don't know if that is good or not." Erica says shaking her head. She loved Nichole's music,but sometime hated that the inspiration behind them probably was real. " or vile hour doing SYNCO songs...." She offers making a scale gesture with her hands.

Erica plays with Nichole's hair when she lays it on Erica's shoulder. Erica had a strange attraction to Nichole's hair. The shade and curls just thrilled Her.it always reminded her of their game of "find the lighter" on big brother. "We should have a night away from the ship,your pile of songs...we should hit one of the fancy hotels here and rub our crassness and wealth In People's faces." Erica says softly. Being a punk rock musican,it was hard for Erica to accept success...unless it was being used to spite people. She had eventually come around to Nichole's habit of pampering oneself. They were worth it. "Oh! That would be so funny,I think just changing the tone of the songs could make them pretty dark." Erica muses,looking at Nichole's pad. Erica takes a sharpie out of her shirt and draws a little cartoon cat on Nichole's page. Its super girly and has hearts all around it. "Needs glitter" Erica giggles.

"Excellent!l" Erica squeals. She loved the duke,it was truly home to her. But she was ready for a change of scenery. Something a little less run down,a lot more sexy and full of amenities....that worked. " I have made arrangements with my sister,so our kids will have a place to stay. She is very capable. You know I don't trust just anyone with taki." Erica says,feeling pretty proud of herself. Planning never was her strong suit,but she threw this together nicely. Erica presses her cheek lightly into Nichole's lips. She couldn't get enough of those kisses,and actively had to take part. Even as the kissee. Erica returns the kiss to Nichole's nose. " thank you. " Erica says very seriously. "I have to keep up with your beauty. If not,I could fall behind and find Mariko here.,we jaoanese girls are like hermit crabs,we can just slowly move in in another's territory."

Nichole nods. She felt bad about dumping all of her kids on Mariko, but she knew that if Erica trusted her daughter with her, then she had to be a good temporary mother. Plus, Nichole knew that Castor would never let anything bad happen to any of the Shade kids, and would be the immediately if Mariko needed any help. Nichole laughs a little bit at the idea of Mariko moving into Erica's spot. "You're gorgeous, Eri... Don't tell Mariko, but I think you're the better looking sister. I like your nose better." She winks and smiles. She leans back and sighs. So much had happened to them in the past year. She was so ready for everything to calm down and go back to normal, with Nichole and Castor making music, and Erica and her happy together.

"Oh, no, I know better than to say anything to Mariko about her looks. I've seen her stage show. I know the possibility of her actually acting it out." Nichole smiles. Before all this happened, she wouldn't have given a flying fuck about what anybody thought about her, or how they got along - and while she still didn't especially care about what Honor thought of her, what Mariko thought of her was still pretty important. She wouldn't do anything to jeopardize what she thought was at least a mutual respect for each other. "Yeah, let's buy some of those shitty half-toothbrushes that they sell at hotels. I love them. And then if somebody breaks into our apartment and tries to kill us, it'll be easy to turn the toothbrush into a shank." Nichole says this jokingly, but remembers how Natalya died far after the words left her mouth. An 'oh, fuck' look passes her face as she looks for Erica's reaction.

"Erica, I am so sorry. You know I absolutely did not mean anything by that..." Nichole starts, lightly touching the side of Erica's arm. She felt like shit - worse than, in fact. She felt awful about it. She looks down at her hands and takes in a deep breath, knowing what the adult thing to say in this situation would be. "I know probably a lot of people have said this to you before, but I really mean it: If you want to talk about it with me, you can." Nichole's hate towards Natalya has completely disappeared in the past few months, and although she had moved on, she knew that there was no way Erica could have.

"Fuck what's fair to me," Nichole says back immediately, her voice sounding a bit more hostile than she meant it to sound. She would never admit it, but she did feel a small amount of guilt towards what happened as well. Something about being with Erica was honestly making her a better person, and Erica saying that it wasn't fair to Nichole to talk about Natalya around her made Nichole think of everything that she did that wasn't fair to Natalya. She needed, at least now, to make things right. "Erica..." she starts, and then pauses, not knowing what she could say that hasn't been said to Erica a thousand times already. "I love you so much..." she continues. "So many people do. Takara, Nina, Erich, Honor - that bitch, Kai - that dick... god, I hate your friends... but I also kind of love them because they love you. Do you get what I mean? It's hurting all of us how much you've been hurting lately, and we just want to help, and trying to spare our feelings isn't helping anybody." Nichole knew that this conversation was going to be rough - probably for the both of them - but it was one that needed to be had if they were ever going to have a completely honest relationship. They both knew each other had a past - hell, they actively participated in each others for a while - so there were no surprises anymore. Just words.

"Yes, of course, I want to know, Erica. I wouldn't have said anything if I didn't," Nichole says back with a nod. She meant that, too. If Nichole didn't want to ever hear about Natalya again, she would have no problem saying so. But she wanted to give Erica a chance to let it all out before anything else happened between them. Her bottom lip curls into her mouth when Erica brings up Honor and Kai. Nichole wasn't aware that something was happening between the two of them again, and it immediately brought up those feelings of hate and distaste for the two of them. She was happy to hear that Erica could really care less about them anymore. She wraps her arms around Erica and waits for her to compose herself before she starts talking again.

Nichole can't help by smile a little bit more when Erica continues on about her new dislike for Honor. In fact, Nichole almost relished in this dislike. She personally hated Honor not only for what Honor had done to Faith, but also for what Honor had said about Nichole herself without provocation. She didn't see anything good about her. Absolutely none. Scott on the other hand... Nichole tended to be much more relaxed about what men had to say about her as opposed to women. She guessed that Erica was so used to everybody liking her that the idea that Scott could suddenly dislike her really rocked her world. Nichole took Erica's hand and squeezed it tightly as she spoke, nodding. When she was finished, Nichole collected her thoughts as well, and started. "I don't want you to feel guilty about thinking about Natalya for my sake," she starts. "You and Natalya have a daughter together, and I'm sure she's as much a reminder of Natalya as my children are a reminder of Sam to me." It physically hurt Nichole to hear that Erica was going through so much guilt and pain for her sake. "And anybody who thinks that you're a horrible person because you have needs that they don't understand is fucking retarded, Erica, and I fucking mean that. If Honor or Scott or... anybody make you feel bad about what is happening in their life, they don't have any right to. Especially not Honor or Scott. Especially not those two." She sighs, coming to Erica's last concern. She knew she couldn't promise that nothing would happen to her, as much as she wanted to, but she could promise one thing. "I will never choosingly leave you. If anybody want to take me away from you, they'll have to take me kicking and fucking screaming. I mean it."