Natalya was tired and a little sore. She had been not sleeping well at all since Erica had gone crazy at her a couple of days ago, convinced that it meant their marriage was about to be over. When Erica called and told her to meet at the little room at the front of the boat, she had sensed it even more, and sighed, trying not to cry. She put on a pair of loose fitting jeans and a hooded sweater, tying her hair back loosely before walking through to the little room. When she arrives, she takes a deep breath and puts the hood up as if to protect herself. She then walks in and sits down nervously, not saying anything.

When Natalya sits down, she doesn't look up, almost as if looking at Erica would start the whole argument off and bring everything crashing around her. She pulls her arms in and hugs herself when Erica speaks, listening intently to everything she says. She shakes her head when offered the limeade and then nods as Erica explains the whole situation to her. She takes another deep breath, trying to not cry as Erica lectures her. "What....what do you mean?" she asks. Her voice came out all small and mousey, as if she was terrified of the outcome of this chat.

Natalya stays still when Erica comes to sit close to her, wondering why she was getting so near when Natalya was sure Erica was going to tell her they weren't going to be together any more. She knew he had been hanging with Nichole at the party, and Nichole hated Natalya, as much as the two pretended they didn't for Erica's sake. She closes her eyes and listens as Erica speaks, nodding the whole time. She had to admit, nothing that Erica said didn't make sense. It was all reasonable. She takes a deep breath and waits for a few moments to stop the tears. "I know. I do not know why I do it. I sometimes just feel like I am mad and so I go onto Twitter and I change the name. I guess....I guess I am trying to make you realise that something is wrong when I do that. It is not supposed to hurt you." She stares at her own feet out of shame when she finishes speaking.

Natalya keeps her eyes fixed on the floor as Erica lectures her some more. Suddenly, the pattern on the carpet seems far more interesting than it had ever done in the past, and she looks almost scared to take her eyes away from it. he hadn't really been in this position before. Erica didn't normally get mad at her, and she was afraid she would lose her wife over it. She nod and a tear drops onto her hand, which she quickly wipes away. "No. You aren't. I only do it when you are not here....because I feel like I am left out...and I don't like it. I feel like I need to make you notice me, and I do that by changing my name on Twitter..." she shrugs. "I'm sorry."

Natalya cringes at the way Erica criticises her. Everything that her wife was saying was true, but she still found it hard to hear the words come from Erica's mouth. Erica barely ever said anything bad about Natalya, perhaps a reason why she had acted so spoiled throughout their marriage. But she was stil hurting from the shots Erica was taking at her. She nods slowly, hugging herself tighter and trying to disappear into the chair she was sat on. "I didn't want to go to the party because I felt a bit sore. Then when you were there I was....alone and I felt like I should make you feel guilty for that. Even though it was not your fault. There was not an excuse...this is just true and how I felt on that night." She knew it made her sound like a bitch and a horrible person, but it was the truth, Natalya didn;t like when she didn't get her own way, but she was learning the hard way that life didn't work like that. She cries quietly, hiding her face so there is no way Erica would know.

Natalya closes her eyes and shakes her head from side to side. She hadn't known that pain could be a sign of a miscarriage and the thought terrified her. "I did not know this. I did not keep it from you to prove a point. I just thought you wouldn't always want to hear my moans that I am sore." She starts to cry. "But then when you were having fun and I was sore I wanted you to feel bad at that. I don't know why." She covers her face and sobs. "I love you. I love you so much."

Natalya listens as she cries. Erica was right about everything. She had never had someone tell her she was wrong before....it was part of the reason she acted up from time to time. But now Erica was 100% in the right. "I know. I should have told you. Sometimes I feel like I am such a hassle if I do." She looks at the ground and brings her knees up to her chest. "Sometimes..I don't feel welcome in your social groups. I don't feel like any of them like me so I don't like to make everyone feel awkward. But I'm sorry. I should have come there." She starts crying harder, thinking Erica is breaking up with her now. "I know. I have been mean. I don't know. I'm just a mean person."

"I just....I don't know. I don't want you to think that I do not want to be pregnant. Because I do. It makes me happy to be doing this for us both." She sighs and looks down again as she brings her arms inside her sweater, as if she is trying to hide even more. She was scared Erica would defend her friends and say Natalya was wrong, but she was only trying to tell the truth and show her wife how it really was. She felt like Nichole in particular hated her, and that Ada saw her as some sort of blonde trophy for Erica and nothing more. When Erica puts her arm around her, Natalya doesn't move much, instead staying still, not sure how things will go. "Yes. I always feel like they do not want me around and stuff. I feel like it is better if you do not have to have me there when your friends are there."

Natalya nods. She takes a moment to think about it, and while she was didn't like to be a hassle and complain about anything, if Erica wanted to know, then she would tell her everything. "Alright then. I will say, if that's what you want I will tel you all the things." She shrugs and looks at Erica for e moment before fixing her eyes back on the floor quickly. And then Erica talks about Natalya manipulating her. That much was true. But she was taking Nichole's side yet again. It was obvious she was talking about her. "Of course. She would have to stick her face in where it wasn't wanted. I might have been mean to you Erica. And yes I have been and I want to make it right and be a better wife to you. But how many times has SHE manipulated you and upset you? Much much more! And still you take her side." She just shakes her head. She always felt like their marriage had someone extra always lingering in the background just waiting to point out Natalya's flaws..and Erica always listened.

Natalya sighs. "You say it is about you and I....and our future. Yet you are listening to her again. You can see how I have been mean and done horrible things. And I admit that I have and I want to change for you and make it all better. But you still cannot see how she manipulates you. You are blind to what she does to you because you see her still as being....I don't know...some sort of sister. You are too easy to forget all that she did. That sort of thing does not just stop overnight. Erica I say things and change my twitter name to make you mad. And I am sorry for that. But what she did was way more sadistic and calculating. And yet still you favour her every time." She cries a little and shakes her head, trying to stop.